2015, Let’s Go.

I fell off the wagon for a while and by a while I mean since October. November through January 1st is always a super busy time for me as I’m sure it is for everyone. I did so much over the holidays that I really don’t even feel like writing about it all. To sum up Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years this is what I’ll show you.

LOTS OF FAMILY TIME. In fact, almost TOO much family time.

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Cousins and my sister.

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My ever so stylish grams.

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The good times before Taylor was born. KIDDING, she was in the bathroom.

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Cutting down our tree per tradition.

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Alot of this.

And of course I worked out….NOT

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My workout.

ANYWHO, 2014 was a monumental year for me. I became completely independent, moved to a new city, started a big girl job with a hoity toity company, hated said job, quit said job. Fell off the face of the earth for a bit, did some soul searching and now I’M BACK.
I didn’t really make any unrealistic goals for this year that I know I won’t stick to because I really don’t like those people. “I’m going to workout SO MUCH!!” …said every girl. This year I just decided that I would TRY to have more patience and also to accept the fact that some people are truly just stupid and ignorant. With that I’m going to try and keep sarcastic comments to myself and just find a silver lining in things. Lord knows I won’t be perfect because I swear they left the patient gene out of me when I was born and well, the world is filled with idiots. So here’s to that! I’m truly hoping that this will be a good year. I don’t need anything huge to happen I just want to relax and not have so much stress. Easier said than done but one can always hope!

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What are your new year resolutions?

GONE GIRL. (No spoiler)

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Finally saw this today. I was a huge fan of the book and wow, just wow. I’m completely mind fucked after seeing that. The acting was brilliant, it stuck to the book pretty well (something I always look for), I find the entire story line just fascinating and twisted, and Ben Affleck was definitely not hard on the eyes.

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In all seriousness everyone PLEASE SEE THIS MOVIE. There’s so much I want to say but it’s still newer so I won’t spoil anything. If you’re looking for a good, pretty fast paced, twisted/dark, drama, just go see it. You will be lying in your bed thinking about it right after I promise you that.

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Here is how my sister and I looked after it was over.

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Have you read the book or seen the movie?

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Addiction.

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Because in my little town, in the past couple years it’s been such a problem we’re starting to be known for it.
I’ve seen people I know put in jail for it.
I’ve seen people struggle with it day in and day out.
I’ve known people killed by it.
I’ve seen families torn apart by it.
Because I’ve seen people beat it.

I’m mostly writing this post in honor of my second “brother” who has struggled with addiction for years and years. If you would’ve known him you probably would’ve thought he’d wind up dead or in jail for good. Guess what? HE BEAT IT. If you know someone who’s struggled from alcohol and drug addiction then you know how big of a deal this is. You feel so proud and so thankful that somehow they dug themselves out of that hole and truly wanted better for themselves. I am SO proud to say he graduated from his drug court program. Please take the time to read this article.

Sadly, these kind of things don’t always have a happy ending, most times they don’t. A middle school friend of mine had a brother with a truly deep problem. Unfortunately for him he wasn’t able to overcome this demon. His family just recently wrote this touching article about how it effects people and a little background on the story. If you’re interested in this you can read that one here. The hardest part about this one is I know more than one effected by it. Of course this family lost their son, brother, grandchild but there is also the case of the family who’s son sold this heroin to Mark. This man happens to be one of my very good friends, boyfriend. THREE YEARS after the incident they decided to press charges and a young man is serving over 5 years in jail for selling. In no way to I condone the selling of drugs but I can also tell you this, Mike wasn’t a bad guy and of course Mike didn’t intend for someone to die. It’s where the justice system gets hard. Charging a man for negligent homicide and unintended homicide sounds so hard, especially since it was Marks choice to take those drugs but you also need to know if you’re dealing, ANYONE can wind up dead from those drugs. In this case I feel like nobody won. I always continue to pray for all those involved.

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Addiction is scary. It can change a person completely. It can also be in someone that you never would even suspect. It hides, it manipulates, but make no mistake, it kills. Educate yourself, learn the signs, help someone if they aren’t helping themselves.

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I always urge anyone I know struggling with anything like this to seek help. It may seem like something you’ll never overcome but if you have the drive then you can do it.

I think it’s important for people to see that there is hope that’s why I included such a happy story but also there are many other ways it can turn out too. Never let it be too late.

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What are your stories?
Do you think there is anything we as a society can do to help this?

Proud high school alum!

Welcome to my little sleepy hometown.

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Main Street

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Good ol post office

Where we’re known for one of the best medical facilities. I won’t go on about this one because my experience is so-so. But it is really big.

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I always forget about this wonderful accomplishment my hometown has.
When asked at work to state a fun fact about my hometown I always have to say “umm we have the world’s largest round barn…” Ya, people laugh. BUT WE DO. This is it. It’s bigger in person.

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And with snow since this is half the years weather.

Add it to your bucket list, folks!

BUT THIS FACT IS EVEN BETTER….

Every year the Washington Post publishes a ranking of top high schools in Wisconsin. I’m proud to say this year we are #2 in the state! We have taken first place in 2011 (my graduation year) as well as 2013 and then second in 2012 and 2014. We are always back and forth between two high schools in Milwaukee who are this year, number one, and number three.
Overall in the nation we are #364 which seems bad but in reality for as small as we are, that’s pretty damn good.

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It even lights up. Go Tigers!

Our school takes these rankings pretty serious. We have about 29 AP classes to offer and we’re constantly pushed to take them. “Take AP classes” they said…”They’ll be fun”…they said. AP classes are not so much fun. My junior year I decided to tackle AP American Literature, the only one of which I got a solid A in. AP Economics, which all I pretty much perfected was making good graphs, honestly I learned nothing and pulled off a B+. AP Spanish, no me gusta espanol…I was more than happy for that C-. AP Physics (DO NOT DO THIS TO YOURSELF), and AP Gov where I pretty much learned how messed up our country is. I also took an AP computer class which was so easy and stupid it was almost comical so I don’t even count that A.
In the long run, and I mean REALLY long run I was thankful for these classes. I can’t tell you how many nights I cried to my mom about AP Physics and told her I was dropping out and just finding a sugar daddy. Physics ruined my life. Math is awful enough,  add science and it’s my living nightmare. I truly had to work hard for my grades in high school. Unlike my sister who didn’t even have to open a book and could ace anything. She cried over a B. Studying pays off though because I was able to get a 25 on my ACT when my goal was a 23. Thank god I dominated the reading and English section because my math skills are not so hott. Although I didn’t do the traditional schooling I earned degrees in what I needed and am kicking butt lately.
We work/worked had at that school, students still continue to keep this ranking for us. Our educators are beyond wise. They’re compassionate, understanding,  and strive for excellence. For a town of under 20,000 we do pretty damn good academically.

Honestly, I didn’t like high school. But this is an exciting accomplishment.

I just want to also note, I won the 4th grade spelling bee too.
K, Thanks.

Check out the article!
http:// http://m.wuwm.com/?utm_referrer=#mobile/28642

13 things a woman should never have in her apartment.

So this isn’t by my standards and I’m going to pick it apart a little. I was reading on MSN Living and stumbled across the article titled “13 things a woman should never have in her apartment/home.” Some I agree with some I don’t, we’ll see what you think.

1. Excessive frills
I definitely agree with this one. Maybe it’s just more my personal taste however I hate frills. Too much pink, ruffles, or frills on anything drives me insane. Our name is not Elle Woods and we’re not in “Legally Blonde”. I seriously went crazy when she decorated her office area. Nobody wants to walk into your place and feel like barbie threw up.
2. Silk flower arrangements
Lololol these just remind me of my 94 year old grandma’s arrangements in her god awful apartment complex (bless her soul, RIP gma). THEY DO NOT LOOK REAL. You are fooling no one. This is pretty much just saying “everything I touch dies” and “don’t leave me in charge of anything living.” I feel like this is only ok under extenuating circumstances such as…well…I can’t even think of a good reason. You can let me know if you’ve got an excuse for having some.

3. Collage type photo frames

I definitely don’t agree with this one. I have frames all over the place!  Apparently there reason states “you’re setting your date up to ask you “who’s the pretty blonde?” and it’s not you..” Meh whatevs, just means you’ve got pretty friends! I love me some picture frames!

4. Stuffed animals (especially on your bed)
Amen! I feel so weird when I walk into a grown woman’s bedroom and they have stuffed animals all over! I’ll admit I have an entire garbage bag full of them stashed away but they’re not in the open. The most I have is a blanket my grandma made me hanging on the side of my bed. WE’RE GROWN WOMEN NOW!

5. Inspiration quotes
Again, I don’t agree with this one. I love me a good inspirational kick in the morning. Reasons for this states “Inspirational quotes of any kind, especially in needlepoint,  read as a cry for help under every circumstance.” Hahahaha. I have no needlepoint quotes so I’m in the clear and none of mine are too depressing so I’ll just agree to disagree with them on this.

6. Cheap bedding
I totally agree! Everyone wants to sleep with wonderful feeling sheets! I love me some silk sheets or super soft cotton! However we can’t always afford that! Cut us a break here. Seriously though, good quality bedding makes sleeping that much more enjoyable.

7. Cosmetics everywhere
Either keep them in your bathroom or have a designated spot for this. Don’t have stuff everywhere. Nobody needs to know how much work you put into looking your best! A girl is entitled so some secrets!

8. Doll collections
No, never. Creepy to the extreme.

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9. Family photos by the bed
This is one of my cardinal no no’s. Who wants their parents watching them while they’re making sweet, sweet love? Not me.

10. An abundance of pet pictures
Ok so maybe like twenty is excessive however Ollie has his personal frames throughout my apartment. I sometimes even talk to them. I may miss him just a little too much…

11. Cat trees/homes
One phrase- “crazy cat lady.” You don’t want to be that.

12. Sorority memorabilia
While you’re in it hey that’s fine. If you’re old and out of college just put it away. Your ship has sailed.

13. Mismatched furniture (too much)
I really agree with this as well. A couple pieces is ok but everything would drive me nuts. I like everything to look put together.

Do you agree/disagree with any of these?

On this day…

9/11
Where were you when the world stopped turning?
I was in class. I hardly had any idea what was going on. It wasn’t until I got home and saw how devasted my parents looked. They sat me down and explained it to me in child terms. I’ve gotta say, I wish I could’ve just kept it that way rather than learn the real, harsh truth of it all as I got older.

“We survive, it’s what we do.”

Just saying the date makes me cringe. I hate that about tragedy. No matter how much time passes the day is forever marked.
I especially feel bad for all the people with birthdays on this day. No matter what year they always have this event talked about on their day of celebration. That being said, how could we not talk about it? It’s a part of us. It’s a part of our history. It will be known by people who weren’t even alive for it. There’s no completely coming back from things like this. There will always be some reminder.
It’s been 13 years and we’re still rebuilding. Not just the monuments and buildings but also the people.
“I get knocked down, but I get up again. No they never gonna keep me down.”

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“Cause our flag still stand for freedom and you can’t take that away.”

When I think about the events that happened and I sit here watching the 9/11 segments on tv I can’t help but cry. It’s an unfathomable event. I can’t even begin to understand how the people on those airlines or in the buildings must have felt. I can imagine the people that hadn’t prayed in years were doing so right then. The ones who jumped out from 80 story windows, what courage that must have taken. Either be buried under rumble or jump, either way they knew their fate. I probably would’ve chose the leap of faith as well if I absolutely knew I wasn’t going to make it. But then again, that’s the thing,  I have NO idea what I truly would do in that situation because I can’t even begin to imagine being in a situation like that. Each and every one of them were heroes. From the firefighters to the ones who tried to take back control of United 93. Pure courage.

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I’m especially reminded today of how thankful I am for what I have. How thankful I am for those who serve our country and help me feel safe. For those who go out of their way to put themselves in danger in order to protect us. Those as well are the true hero’s.

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And also prayers for ALL the innocent lives lost. We in America,  aren’t the only ones who suffered from this and I think sometimes people lose sight of the fact that innocent lives were lost because of this in other countries as well.

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It’s all senseless violence. I wish the world didn’t have to be burdened with these things but it’s always going to be the harsh reality.

ALWAYS remember, America kicks ass. We will always make a comeback and everytime it will be stronger.
Watch out ISIS.

One final note, this day is also in remembrance of the death of a beautiful, Tina Franseen. The guy I was with for 4 years lost his mom to cancer on this day. To this family this is what they link 9/11 to above anything else. They are wonderful people and she gave birth to 5 amazing children before leaving this earth and would be so proud of them today. Even though most of you don’t know this family just say an extra prayer for them as well. The years may have passed since her death but the ache never fully goes away. I see that in all of their eyes. Especially since alot of them are getting married now or having children of their own.

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Hug your family close, if you love someone, tell them, now. Life is too short to wait for tomorrow’s. You can never be too sure if you’re going to get a tomorrow. Always live in the moment.

And always remember,  ‘MERICA!

For my baby sister.

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Taylor Marie Capener,
I turned 3 years old and two days later you were born. I’m still glad mom refused to have you on my birthday. You know how I am about sharing… πŸ˜‰
I can’t believe you’re done with your first week of COLLEGE. It just hasn’t hit me yet.

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Sorry Tay, but you were an ugly baby.

I’m sorry for the times you were taken to the doctor because everyone thought you were mute. In reality you just never felt the need to talk because I answered all questions for you. Pretty sweet deal, right?!  I really did mean well.
(Never fear guys, she DEFINITELY learned to talk… eventually.) Then I started wishing you hadn’t. Oh you drove me insane. It was a constant state of feeling like this….

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I really did try to sell or you… sometimes even drown you in the bathtub. My efforts never worked. I was stuck with you. You did eventually get cuter, so I’m glad for your sake.β™₯

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Although sisters, we could not be more opposite in looks. As we got older that became extremely noticeable. (I then found out later I was adopted.) JUST KIDDING GUYS. But seriously, you were a toe-head through and through I was the darkest brown you could get. You had stick straight hair all your life, I became a poodle.  You have blue eyes, I have brown eyes. Not to mention you tower over me which I’ll always hate.

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As we got older and went through the stages of our life, like learning to drive…

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My first day of senior year, her first day freshman year!

Attending middle school and high school there were obviously numerous screaming matches. We fought ALL THE TIME. But the best thing about sisters is we had no choice but to work it out. We made it through 18 years under one roof together and managed NOT to kill eachother. Although I did think about it once or twice..
I’m so happy with how close we are now. Let’s face it, we never thought that day would come. Remember the numerous eye rolls we gave mom everytime she’d tell us “one day you’ll be thankful to have eachother and truly get along.”? Can’t believe she was actually right.

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I’m so proud of you, Taylor Marie! You’re going to do such great things and I’m glad we’ll always have eachother. If there’s one thing I’m proud of for teaching you and setting the example of it’s that NO MATTER WHAT take no shit. It’s your life and you get to choose what you want. Never ever care what anyone says or thinks about you. In the end you’ll get to look back and smile because you proved them all wrong. You’re beautiful, smart, and driven. I can’t wait to see what you do.
I love you always,
Your big sister.

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Xoxo.

Emmy fashion 2K14!

It’s award season!!!

WORST DRESSED

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It reminds me of my want to be a mermaid.  Just doesn’t work for her.

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Awful, just awful.

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WHO IS THIS IMPOSTER?! Seriously does anyone else think this looks like she got bad plastic surgery?! FYI if you couldn’t even tell like I couldn’t, it’s Zooey Deschanel.

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Save this look for the bedroom.

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I don’t care if she’s an Orthodox Jew or not, she could fit the entire family under there. It’s a shame too because I adore the color.

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Her body is AMAZING, WHY ARE YOU HIDING it with that ugly ass bow?!

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Velvet is never coming back, like ever.

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This was probably my least favorite. Everything about it is just so wrong.

BEST DRESSED

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I’m biased because yellow is my favorite color but damn she’s working this dress. So flattering!

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She’s younger and adorable, I love this! I would wear this! The color is fun and her top bun just fits perfect with the outfit.

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This color is AMAZING with her skin tone. She looks beautiful and I love this dress!

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Again, I LOVE this color! This dress flows and just looks so summery! I love the lace cut out in the middle as well.

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She could wear a garbage bag and still be gorgeous. LOOK AT THOSE LEGS. She looks absolutely stunning.

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Alright,  Alright,  Alright. DAMN.

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Of course you have to have a stunning wife on your arm when you look that great.

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Girl, you make pregnancy look hott.

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Her voice may make me want to rip my ears off but the woman knows how to work her assets. 

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The color and fit and flow. Perfect.

What were your favorites and least favorites?!

VMA’s 2K14

Let’s just all take this time to remember 5 years ago when Kanye West infamously interrupted Taylor Swifts speech. Seriously, I can’t believe it’s been 5 years already!! He was and still is one of the most arrogant stars I see and it’s ten times worse now that he’s married to Kim K. Lord help us all.

Speaking of T Swift, I’m indifferent on her outfit. I like the top half but not the bottom. She’s not longer country now if you haven’t heard and I think she may be trying just a tad too hard to grow out of her young, innocent, country phase. Also, her hair is adorable but I miss her curls. Loved her performing Shake it Off though. ITS SO DAMN CATCHY.

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Next up..Wiz and Amber. WHY DOES SHE ALWAYS DRESS SO INSANE?! You’re a mama now woman, please show a little less!! I have yet to find an awards show where I liked either of their outfits.

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Can’t believe I’m even saying this but I actually LIKE what Miley Cyrus is wearing. For those who can pull off the crop top look, kudos. I think this is the best and most normal she’s looked in a long time.

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Adam Levine and Bheti Prinsloo, I will forever have a crush on him and not to sound mean but I just don’t find his new bride to be overly beautiful. I’m just not sure how I feel about these too or their outfits.

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Demi Lovato looks great. She’s come a long way from her struggles with her body image and I think she’s rocking this dress. Plus, I’m a sucker for a red dress with a little va-voom.

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Not sure if Kanye was in charge of picking this one out or she did so herself, either way it sucks. I can’t stand her and she just really doesn’t wear things that flatter her.

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Katy Perry, WHY?!

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Just so we can all take a stroll down memory lane here’s a comparison to when Britney and Justin came in matching denim outfits….LIKE 10+ years ago!

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Ariana Grande, I seriously love her voice, I seriously dislike her outfit. It’s just too much. She could be so adorable and could rock anything with her body. This doesn’t do it for me.
Ke$ha Kesha, I actually am ok with her choice. I like that she’s tried to tone it down a bit yet still adds her own touches to everything. A lot of people don’t like her but I always have.
Lucy Hale, I don’t hate it but I don’t love it. She’s another one that I think is gorgeous but doesn’t always pick the right styles for herself. Not sure if I dig her as a music star either. Pretty Little Liars all the way!!

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Can we all just take in the fact that she’s 45. JLo is seriously hott.

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I honestly think Nina Dobrev can do no wrong. I don’t know what it is but I find her insanely gorgeous! I actually really like the dress she chose as well!

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Any fashions that you totally hated or loved?! There were quite a few others but these were just some that stuck out to me.

Let’s just all take a moment to appreciate that this did not have to be seen again this year….

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Happy VMA’s!!

Saturday movie day!

So every once in a while I decide to spend my Saturday watching movies. I mainly do this after a really long, stressful, week. This was one of those weeks, so this is one of those Saturday’s. Usually Kendall or a girlfriend of mine joins but I decided I wanted some alone time today. I searched through netflix and picked out movies I haven’t seen and some that I have.
First on my list which I actually watched LAST Saturday night when my parents stayed with me was The Big Wedding.

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We got some good laughs from this one. It was FILLED with celebs. I love Katherine Heigl just because of my obsession for Grey’s Anatomy. AND ERIC FOREMAN was on it (yes I know that’s not his real name but he’ll always be that to me.) Also is there anyone that doesn’t love Susan Sarandon, Diane Keaton, and Robert DeNiro?! Such classic actors. It’s a cute, cliche movie. You won’t die if you don’t watch it though.

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Next up I watched What to Expect When You’re Expecting. I’m really glad I chose this today because it was actually really cute!

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Again this was pretty stacked with celebrities as well! But my favorite part of this entire movie….

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HELLO CHACE CRAWFORD. Why did I not watch this movie sooner! This just made me miss GG ten times more. Seriously this guy gets me all sorts of hott and bothered.
Chace Crawford aside this was actually a cute movie. Some sad moments and some relatable.Β  If you are looking for a girls night movie I highly recommend!

Next up I decided to watch The Other Woman.

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I’m a big Natalie Portman fan! I had never heard of this movie but I’m glad I did. It’s a drama but not in the gripping the edge of your seat kind of drama. It’s raw, real life, drama. I swear no matter what kind of movie Natalie Portman is in she always nails it. I cried, alot. It’s pretty self explanatory. Woman has affair with her boss, gets pregnant, and marries the boss while dealing with the bitter ex wife and incorporating her new step son into her life. There’s more to it but I won’t spoil it for anyone who decides to watch.

After that I decided on one that I can pretty much quote every line of, Never Back Down.Β  It’s not a hugely popular movie but I know quite a few who have seen it. Saw this when it came out in theaters and then bought the DVD right after. Everytime I watch this movie I instantly feel super bad ass and want to punch something. I use the soundtrack to this movie a TON when I work out. If you haven’t heard the song Someday by Flipsyde LISTEN TO IT. For all you runners, I guarantee it’ll make you push a little harder for those last steps! Everything about this movie just makes you want to strive to do your best and fight your fight in life.

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Main character, Sean Faris is a cutie.

Oh and another reason to watch NBD- CAM GIGANDET. He plays the bad one in this movie but he’s just oh so good. SERIOUSLY LOOK AT HIM. And everyone watch this movie!

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And then lastly because the main actor from Never Back Down was in this next movie I chose to give it a watch.Β  It’s called Forever Strong. I enjoy a good sports movie and this one is based on Rugby.

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This is actually a really good movie. I’m surprised I hadn’t heard of it before. Teenage guy on the wrong path forced to straighten his life out. You won’t be disappointed you watched it. Always room to turn your life around!

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Oh and if What to Expect When You’re Expecting didn’t taunt me enough with having Chace Crawford in it, this one has Penn Badgley from GG as well. This is a sign.

So there’s my Saturday movie recap!  Hope everyone had as productive a day as I did! Seriously though, I needed this. Life is kicking my ass lately! Anyone else feeling that way?!

Happy weekend-ing!